Saturday, February 16, 2008
Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore

samm spoke at 6:44 AM


Sunday, February 10, 2008
losing everyone i love and hold dear to my heart.
and it s all ME, my screwed up personality, my fiery temper, my impulsiveness, without consideration of consequences and feelings.

be afraid, be very afraid.

samm spoke at 2:51 AM


Wednesday, February 06, 2008
MUSIC IS MY LIFE.
do something you re passionate about, and you ll do it well.

everyone s been asking me what im gonna do in the future, what i wanna be.
honestly, i dont know. cause i have many dreams! not just one, but manymany.

my dream is to make music that would change the world.
lyrics that heal, melodies that soothe the soul.
songs that bind people, regardless of the differences that exist.

my dream is to help the poor and needy in every way possible.
reach out to the people, children in the third world, far less fortunate than me.
feed them, clothe them, shelter them, hug them, tell them someone loves them.

hmm so i dont have manymany dreams haha. just two.
i guess i could be an artist who feeds the hungry.
a humanitarian who sings to the little ones.
music therapist to stricken countries.

daddy and mom are not rich. they dont have a salary. our family supported by the church and family friends.
yet, i feel blessed. i have more than enough. more than i could ever ask for.
i have everything i need.
and most of what i want.
(:

a cheer for the grumpy.
a hug for the mean.
food for the hungry.
a piggyback ride for the weak.


you never know when someone needs a smile. so smile always! ((:

samm spoke at 4:45 AM


Thursday, January 17, 2008
as i was walking home today, i saw a young boy with down-syndrome, prancing along the sidewalk, listening to his mp3 player
waving his arms in the air, shaking his hips, to the rhythm of the beat
and i thought to myself, wow.
what i would give to be free of worries, to not be self-conscious of society s judging eyes
everyone was staring, but he continued. unaware of the attention he was attracting.
i had the urge to join him haha
people often wonder why God s punishing them when their kids are born with down-syndrome, or are spastic
i wldnt say it s a punishment, sure these kids require more care than others
but in the end, it s these kids that teach you the innocence of life, the simplicity, that life never gets too complicated to handle
there s innocence in the way they speak, in the way they express themselves
these things we have forgotten
that one boy cheered me up today
for the first time that day,
i smiled.

(:

samm spoke at 1:51 AM


Wednesday, January 16, 2008
emo no longer, i am now a new man! woman, new wo-man.
so much for all that bullcrap about camping out in the library, and "ooh, cant wait to get my hands on those readings"
i now dont really wanna study. boo.
must have been that dead-boring lecture today
hopefully german tomorrow will be better!
i know it s a little late since the new year s over already but heck

New Years Resolution - Be a better person, a better daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, human.

aint as easy as it sounds.
better start now.

samm spoke at 4:12 AM


Monday, January 07, 2008
2007

an eventful year. so much has happened. on hindsight, i would not have said it was a happy year. i dont know.

2008

started off bad. bangkok did make up for it though. had fun hanging out with the girls and guys.




somehow everything seems so be slipping away from me, out of my control.
hoping this year would be better.

samm spoke at 5:06 AM


Friday, November 23, 2007
first thanksgiving. and it turned out pretty well (:
second traditional thanksgiving dinner, complete with turkey, cranberry jelly, pumpkin pie, and minced meat pie (which had an interesting taste, pretty good)
third day into thanksgiving break. and it s black friday. means shoppingshopping and more shopping!

im thankful...
for the wonderful parents i have, and the sister and the brother, brats they may be (:
for the pollocks who invited me into their wonderful warm home for dinner, the rowdiest and coziest bunch by far (:
for my friends back home in singapore and here (: i ll miss ya'll but i wont forget you guys. ever. and im gonna say something cheesy like distance may separate us, but my heart will be with you always. hahaha. i mean it though ;)
for michael buble, his wonderful music and angelic voice
for daniel henney, providing me with satisfying eyecandy
for Jesus, loving and accepting me for who i am, flaws and all (: loveofmylife ((:



and for you.

samm spoke at 7:13 AM